Not Worthy

Watching Passion of the Christ always brings me to tears. This time, when I watched it, I had the “ugly cry”. 
I would tell you that I don’t know why but that wouldn’t be accurate. I know exactly why this movie, that I’ve now made part of my Easter Weekend tradition, humbles me. 
It is simple. Nothing complicated. But here it is in five words: “I know, I’m not worthy.” 
My humanity – my failings and shortcomings, have become all the more apparent to me as I continue my study of holiness. I thank God for that. Because as I continue to study Peter and study his instructions to the church of the Living God, I know I’m not worthy of the sacrifice that Jesus paid. He paid a dear price for my life – for my freedom. The same applies to you too. 
The spit, the scourging, the mocking, the pain, the beatings, the whips, the nails – all for me – what have I ever done to deserve this – nothing. I know, I’m not worthy. 
So, this year, as I watched the movie, with heart full and tears flowing, I know I’m not worthy – and that mindset gives me perspective … humility. My life now is not about what I want to do, but what I must do, in obedience and in service to my God. For He is alone is worthy. 

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Power from Peter?

A gifted writer once said, “write what you need to read.” It has stuck with me for a good while. And what I’ve discovered is that I need to read something encouraging, full of hope and opportunity. I do not need to read something that is tragic or depressing or full of doubt. I need to read about David and Peter, Elijah and Paul. I need to know that in the midst of what seems to be a rough patch, God is there with me. Never leaving my side. I need to know that everything is going to be alright. That’s what I need to take from what I read. And I would venture to guess that it’s the same with many of us. We don’t need more bad news when we sit down to read. We can turn on the local news for that.
So, in the next series of posts, I’m going to focus on the good news. The things that spur us heavenward and encourage us in all things godly. And hopefully, it will spur you on to increased joy, better attitudes and to being better blessings to those that you encounter.
Today, since I’ve been studying him, I want to talk about Peter.
Yes, Peter from the Bible. You know – Simon Peter. That Peter. And from the outset I know you may be questioning how my first paragraph has now aligned with this paragraph but there is something that you need to read in Peter’s story.
When we first read about Simon Peter, Jesus is telling him to come after Him. And he did. He obeyed and became a disciple. And as we read his story, we come to find out that Peter was a mess! Just like some of us, Peter was rather impulsive and came across a little brash. He spoke without thinking and was extremely passionate, even when he was wrong. Are you drawing a character picture? Some of us will only need to look in the mirror. (If that’s you, smile and keep reading, please).  We could go on and on about how Peter did unruly things in unguarded moments or even about how he denied Jesus, just as Jesus said he would. But what is more important is what became of Peter.
Jesus renamed Simon Peter to Peter, which means “rock.” Rocks are steady, hard, solid. They don’t seem to be very descriptive of Peter. But Jesus knew what would become of Peter. He would go on, after Jesus’ ascension to do great things for God. Yes, this impulsive, brass Peter would end up representing the Kingdom of God well. What you need to see when you read this is that even though Peter failed and fell at times, he got back up and kept following. When he made mistakes, God’s faithfulness compensated for his unfaithfulness. As Peter’s zeal for the Lord began to be backed up on the solid, steady and hard foundation of faith and understanding, his ministry thrived. And as proof of his ministry success, we now treasure 1 and 2 Peter in the New Testament.
1 Peter is a letter of encouragement to the saints – even through suffering. For he says “Forasmuch then as Christ hath suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind; for he that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin; that he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God.” (1Peter 4: 1-2)
2 Peter is a letter of warning and exhortation. We are to be vigilant and watchful for false teachers and to be students of the Word for ourselves. He writes “This second epistle, beloved, I now write unto you; in both which I stir up your pure minds by way of remembrance: that ye may be mindful of the words which were spoken before by the holy prophets, and of the commandment of us the apostles of the Lord and Saviour: knowing this first, that there shall come in the last days scoffers, walking after their own lusts, and saying, “Where is the promise of his coming? For since the fathers fell asleep, all things continue as they were from the beginning of the creation.” (2 Peter 3:1-4).
But don’t be deceived. Be a follower. Your walk may not be perfect – no, scratch that – you’re walk will not be perfect, but you still need to know who you are following. Follow hard after Christ. Everything else is a lie.
You don’t have to quit the Christian life because you make mistakes. Instead, God has given us a path to repentance through His Son. Follow Hard after Christ. Think about this – God loves each of us so much that He sent His Son to die for OUR sins. His Son, Who is blameless and perfect and holy, took our penalty. He is the ultimate sacrifice. He died for us. So, the appropriate response from us is to now live for Him. Your walk may resemble Peter’s but even after knowing what Peter was all about, Jesus’ last words to Peter were “follow thou me.” Peter wasn’t perfect but his life’s example can be mined to give us power!
So, we are left with no excuses. We need to follow Him. Whatever you have done, take the path to repentance and follow hard after Christ.

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A Random Update

I’ve got so many random things to fill you in on … and I’ve been trying to figure out the best way to do it but I was stuck. So, I just figure, I’ll add everything and you can read what you want. Sound good? I thought so too.

This is not in order of importance btw…

So, I’ve been under the gun … time has not been my friend … and with every blink of my eye, I get a new deadline. Ugh. And I’m tired. Exhausted. And, mentally – well, let’s not even go there. In the midst of all of this, I’ve had peace. Sure there were a few times when I lifted my eyes up heavenward and said “umm…A little help please” but God let me know that He already was helping. He was keeping me. I didn’t miss any deadline whatsoever. Not one thing slipped. To God be the glory!

I’m facing another week of the same pressure. But I’m confident in God going into this week. I’ve been hanging out with 1Chronicles 29 where David’s prayer is recorded. Awesome Word. Check it out. Don’t delay. Seriously. I’m on praise mode….”thine, O Lord, is the greatness, and the power, and the glory, and the victory, and the majesty: for all that is in the heaven and in the earth is thine; thine is the Kingdom, O Lord, and thou art exalted as head above all. I’m just saying, get your Bible and check out 1Chronicles 29.

Oh, I never heard back from the mystery caller but I really believe I know who it was.

I’ve been praying about a little situation that I’m in and while it looked like I wasn’t about to get an answer, today, at Church, I got a little encouragement. I don’t know how it’s all going to work out but I do thank God. He’s so good. I asked God for something. I’ll let you know if I get it! …I’m excited!

I’ve got an engagement coming up that I’ve been preparing for too. That’s going well and I’m excited to experience how the Lord is showing me new things – good things. God is good. When is the last time that you sat down with the Lord, Bible open, ready for Him to reveal new things to you – even on familiar passages? Do it this week in your quiet time! Ummm…you are having quiet times, right?

And finally, I find myself in a new season. I am navigating it the best I can with the help of the Lord. I decided not to be judgmental about the season. It is what it is and I’m too early in it to really have an opinion anyway. All I know is that I’m still alive and determined to live with my eyes fixed on the right things for God’s glory. How is your season going? Anything good/exciting/new?

Oh…one last thing…for real this time. I’ve been thinking of a design for my family reunion t-shirts this year. By and by I think I’ve got it! Soooooo excited too. Alright. Enough of the newsflash. Depart knowing this – I appreciate you. Thanks for stopping by the blog and have a blessed week.

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